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2023-01-10

Tue, 10 Jan 2023 00:00:00 +0000
honestly just want to know if my current deployment system is still valid</p>
2021-01-05

Tue, 05 Jan 2021 00:00:00 +0000
thoughts§</a> </h1>
it's been a tough month. being cooped up inside 24/7 is really starting to get to me. so it goes.</p>
work §</a> </h1>
apparently i will be submitting a paper to langsec's conference as a part of IEEE's security and privacy symposium. it has to do with PDF's, no surprise - really, the fact i am coauthoring something right out of college, let alone something covering formal methods is the surprise itself. i have no clue what i'm doing, dear reader.</p>
i've also got my company up on matrix now, and work on `dux</code>, my ggg based PDF parser will begin proper this month.</p>`
`non-work§</a> </h1> gabby and i continue to work through the x files. we're at season 4 now. i've also made a thing out of playing through the megaman x series along with a few other video games here and there.</p> if you call it "not working", i'm also starting to work through baudrillard's bibliography for fun.</p> exercise§</a> </h1> i really, really, really, really miss weight lifting. i really miss it. a lot.</p>`



2020-12-06
Sun, 06 Dec 2020 00:00:00 +0000
thoughts§</a>
</h1>
unfortunately very long week. gabby and i have been exploring housing options
in KC along with possible work office spaces and have concluded everything
sucks. i might just get my own loft so we, in effect, have our own office
spaces, but for now we are trying out a very-very large book shelf as a office
partition to help add some privacy, noise absorption, and work-life separation
for both of us.</p>
covid19 and a failed national response really have made the situation way more
difficult and frustrating than it would otherwise be since a coffee shop or a
public desk at some workspace would suffice for what we need and would be
cheaper by an order of magnitude.</p>
work§</a>
</h1>
week was mostly defined by outlining work on dux, cross checking ggg, and the
things i need to do between both of them to flesh out a sane and functional
parser for PDF-1.7</p>
non-work§</a>
</h1>
recently discovered bioshock 1 and 2 were remastered in HD and got them on
sale. played through bioshock 1 along with most of mass effect 1 this week
along with watching more football to pass the time.</p>
exercise§</a>
</h1>
nothing but walks with pius. if i get my own space, maybe i could finally get a
weight rack but who knows. im mostly coping and making excuses for not figuring
out an exercise schedule, though.</p>


2020-11-24
Tue, 24 Nov 2020 00:00:00 +0000
thoughts§</a>
</h1>
an uneventful but productive day. foggy with a mix of sleet and rain through the afternoon.</p>
work§</a>
</h1>
PDF-1.7§</a>
</h2>
i managed to finally finish up the sections most pertinent to working on ggg</code> and dux</code>,
i.e. §7.1-3, §7.5, §7.7, and §7.9. i doubt these will be the only parts of the standard i'll be
spending serious time on, but they are definitely the most relevant ones to start with. i want to
find a way to exercise this knowledge more, so maybe a small blogpost or something would suffice - i
hate reading huge sections of a technical resource/document and not doing something more with it
aside from context knowledge for work.</p>
bit fiddling§</a>
</h2>
along with finishing up the stuff i wanted to read/review out of the standard, i did more fiddling
with actual pdf files and their construction. Bless</a> continues
to be a great tool and seems to fit my use cases for navigating and figuring out byte offsets in a
timely manner. pdftk</a> is another tool i started to
experiment and that is fairly well known for this sort of work, but much of my tinkering had me
desiring better documentation of the functionality and its logic; i.e., i will probably need to look
at its source to figure out how it decides to conform to the standard with things like EOL markers.</p>
non-work§</a>
</h1>
i had the sudden and overpowering urge to re-experience the mass effect trilogy of games. i don't
know why i'm the way i am, but i am much more inclined to replay games i enjoyed rather than try
knew ones. anyway, i have something new to look forward to over the winter.</p>
exercise§</a>
</h1>
more small upper body exercises and not much at that. really failing here and it's upsetting.</p>


2020-11-23
Mon, 23 Nov 2020 00:00:00 +0000
thoughts§</a>
</h1>
slow monday</p>
work§</a>
</h1>
PDF-1.7§</a>
</h2>
finished off the file structure part of §7, moved on to document
structure. only have that and data structures left afaiac for having at least a
base to work with when plotting out this parser. that said, getting a hold of
ISO-32000-2:2017 does seem important at this point because i can already see
areas where the syntactic and semantic differentials will, goes without saying,
be rather significant.</p>
Bytes§</a>
</h2>
i also spent a good amount of time after finishing 7.5 looking into and playing
around with hex editors because i want to be able to explore PDF files more
effectively. Finding byte differences quickly for object references, etc, is
more or less critical for basic sanity checks. hexyl didn't feel good enough
for this use case, but Bless seems surprisingly robust and a good fit for what
i need.</p>
non-work§</a>
</h1>
more x files and that was about it, honestly</p>
exercise§</a>
</h1>
gave the dog a nice long walk in the morning with gabby, did some minor lifting
exercise with the weights gabby bought.</p>


2020-11-21
Sat, 21 Nov 2020 00:00:00 +0000
thoughts§</a>
</h1>
having some difficulty waking up in the mornings which is par course as we move
closer to winter proper. being inside all the time really doesn't make things
better, honestly</p>
work (including yesterday)§</a>
</h1>
PDF-1.7/ISO-32000-1:2008§</a>
</h2>
sigh - i am still working through the standard. feels like i've lost some
momentum these past two days which may just be a function of time for any
person working through any non-trivial standard. or... i'm being unnecessarily slow.</p>
as of today, i'm nearly done with file structures which will leave me document
structure (§7.7) and data structures (§7.9). at that point, i believe i'll have
a good starting point to work around PDF's base syntactic structures. from
there, i can start to work with letitia's prototype bnf and see what i can make
of out of it into a ggg based grammar.</p>
at some point i will need to deal with PDF-2.0/ISO-32000-2, which might make sc
joining the pdf association a good idea, if only for a year, to get a hold of
ISO documents for both PDF-2.0 but also for PDF/A if that becomes any sort of
interest for the duration of our SafeDocs work.</p>
internal comms§</a>
</h2>
hoping to get a matrix server and client going for sc soon so that we can have
a more coordinated means of communication for both SafeDocs work but also
bridge and other projects.</p>
non-work§</a>
</h1>
nothing special today but more x files with gabby, some work on this website,
and maybe some reading.</p>
exercise§</a>
</h1>
this morning we took pius on an extended walk around midtown and gabby bought
some hand weights along with a pull-up/push-up bar that i did some reps
with. i'm weighing the idea of a 24/7 gym membership that i can use at the
crack of dawn (i've seen it at 5am, no one is there...) while wearing my
respirator vs buying a half squat rack for the apartment.</p>


2020-11-19
Thu, 19 Nov 2020 00:00:00 +0000
thoughts§</a>
</h1>
nothing in particular. weather is nice but can't do much because of covid19, so
what's new.</p>
work§</a>
</h1>
running behind on finishing up pdf-1.7 notes. i need to also figure out what to
do about pdf 2.0/ISO 32000-2 since there are features and semantic changes that
are unsurprisingly critical in that version set and SafeDocs is ultimately
evaluating around PDF 2/ISO 32000-2.</p>
non-work§</a>
</h1>
more x files with gabby, also helped abuela with her gutters.</p>
exercise§</a>
</h1>
nope.</p>


2020-11-18
Wed, 18 Nov 2020 00:00:00 +0000
thoughts§</a>
</h1>
i've done it about three times now, but here's my attempt at restarting a log
of sort. part of my conflict is the desire to have one central source of truth
but also a place for public auditing, whatever that may mean. in late 2020, at
least, this now includes my coworkers and anyone possibly interested in my
work. another aspect of this is struggling under the spectacle and crisis of
covid19 in the usa. the situation is far from ideal.</p>
work§</a>
</h1>
note: work really means work</em> now. i have a job. thanks to sam and meredith, truly.</p>
past few days i have been working my way through the PDF-1.7 standard
references. this is synonymous/the same thing as ISO 32000-1, which is why
adobe's 1.7 reference is the last reference document they've released.</p>
this research/note taking is largely focused on chapter seven (syntax), and my
focus has been on subsections §7.1-3, 5, 7, and 9.</p>
i hope to have most of this done today and finished by tomorrow. i might be
tempted to transcribe some kind of personal note dump on PDF or, at minimum,
exporting the hand notes i've taken.</p>
an aside - i am internally conflicted over taking notes via org-mode, which is
faster, vs by hand, which i tend to remember much more of but is much more time
intensive. i digress.</p>
finally, the goal after this is to work on my ggg pdf parser proper. what this
still means is a bit shaky, but i hope that getting a proper comms channel
going internally as well with my peers at BAE will help clear up the
picture. this might be the time for outlining a technical doc and writing up
lists of things i know i need to do based on the pdf.c parser and pypdf.</p>
non-work§</a>
</h1>
with covid19, this winter will be particularly dark. i am looking into
revisiting pincers in a serious manner to keep me occupied, along with
facilitating some kind of reading group on baudrillard, maybe. also, i'm making
x files a thing again. i watched through it several times early in college --
well, the good seasons, at least -- and find it as one of the few television
shows i genuinely enjoy. it's a good way to burn an hour or two in the evening.</p>
exercise§</a>
</h1>
aside from running or doing things like pushup indoors, i don't have many
options right now. it's really depressing.</p>


2020-07-13
Mon, 13 Jul 2020 00:00:00 +0000
thoughts§</a>
</h1>
it's been a long time once again since i've done a public log, trying to see if
i can fight back into the habit given everything else i've been working on.</p>
work§</a>
</h1>
spent most of the day working on a rust web application that i've been slowly
hacking away at for most of july. this is something i've spent time on aside
from things like studying react and doing job prep otherwise.</p>
non-work§</a>
</h1>
i spent the early morning updating my dot-agenda and getting it setup to use
again in addition to my org-mode workflow.</p>
exercise§</a>
</h1>
not today, but i have plans to start running again tomorrow. it's been about 2
weeks since my last run but, in my defense, i had a gnarly pain in my Achilles'
heel that felt like muscle strain from running too hard. i'll be sure to take
it slower this week.</p>


papers we love kcmo is official
Sun, 12 Jan 2020 00:00:00 +0000
four, going on five§</a>
</h1>
when i first started pwl kc 4'ish months ago, i didn't know long it would
survive as a group. at our first real meeting, we decided as a group that pwl
kc would be in a sort of "test drive" mode and that nothing would be made
official until ~3 or so meetings were successfully organized and</em> with modest
attendance (~6 minimum). as of that meeting, we have successfully held four
presentations, and, on the 21st of this month, we'll be holding our fifth.</p>
consequently, i formally opened the PR requesting chapter status and pwl
obliged</a>. pwl kc is now
set up as an official chapter 🎉.</p>
Hedon and myself are the formal organizers (still looking for one more!), our
meetings have thus far always held a healthy number of attendees (6 or more),
and each meeting has been delivered by a new presenter; i would consider pwl kc
very successful if we can manage to hold those numbers for more than a year -
anything else would be frosting on the cake.</p>
aside a few TODO's left to check off (setting up a meetup.com/eventbrite page,
maybe a small gh hosted webpage, and filling out the README on the official
repo), there's not much left with respect to setting up this "official"
organization. the lax nature of pwl is actually a very appreciable facet of
it - the participants tend to be individuals who may or may not be in a
transient phase in their lives as software engineers - so keeping the
organization uniform, but very minimal, seems to be a strong model for such an
org. all you need to really do is have a love for learning cs/ce/swe and a
respect for your fellow scholars.</p>
on that note, i invite anyone who reads this to our next meeting on tuesday,
the 21st of january. we'll be hearing a presentation by Natty, who did a
semester's reading project on GAN's with respect to music generation.</p>
⬛</p>


2020-01-12
Sun, 12 Jan 2020 00:00:00 +0000
thoughts§</a>
</h1>
it's been a busy two weeks.</p>
two weeks ago, my abuelo told me he was planning on going to mexico (as he
regularly does) and asked if i could tag along. the joke here is that i've been
telling him for months</em> that i had the time to go, but in classic fashion, he
notifies of his desire for departure a whole week before leaving.</p>
logically</em>, i still tagged along and all that. on the fourth, we departed from
KC in the morning and arrived in abilene texas around 8. the next morning, we
departed and arrived in my hometown in ~central Chihuahua around 8 yet again.</p>
i drove most of the way, with the exception being Ojinaga -> hometown.</p>
work§</a>
</h1>
lots of work. that's what this trip is all about, and are always about for my
abuelo. lots of skills learned and information about the local economy and
culture generally; it has been some time since i've visited, due to drug
violence, so it continues to be a very informative and fulfilling experience.</p>
non-work§</a>
</h1>
simultaneously, while my mid-afternoons are taken up by family work, the
reality is that this week (and the next) also is very much a vacation. i don't
have ready access to fast internet down here, the t.v. we have gives only 2
channels for viewing, and the general nature of this town yields one's self
into a life that is much more leisurely than what i would ever have north of
the rio. i've really enjoyed it and i can feel the stress completely evaporate
from my body. it's been a great time hanging out with family down here and just
relaxing, especially given all of the annoying and bad news lately.</p>
exercise§</a>
</h1>
🙂</p>


2019-12-26
Thu, 26 Dec 2019 00:00:00 +0000
thoughts§</a>
</h1>
past few days have all been absorbed the holidays; i spent all day on xmas eve
making albondigas for my family's dinner/celebration - it was a hit, and none
was left by the end. the dinner itself was great - a packed house at my
abuela's plus the friends i invited over made for a great time despite the
absence of other family members. xmas day was similar spent with
family/friends, though this time with gabby's family out in kansas. overall
very relaxed and happy times these past few days.</p>
work§</a>
</h1>
i've been working on the Rocket app stuff a lot over the past few days,
holiday's aside. honestly, this has involved a lot of reading on my end to
understand things like CSRF, CORS, HTTP, etc in a web-development context
better, but especially in the context of a systems programming language like
Rust.</p>
i already have the skeleton for a hand-rolled anti-CSRF system programmed out
in my app + the concurrency/multi-threaded stuff that will be required for
opting to make it myself as opposed to shoving it into a dbs of sorts.</p>
also trying to get a coffee related job at bway given how much time i already
spend there + needing some extra cash this semester.</p>
non-work§</a>
</h1>
a good amount of reading and some hanging out with friends.</p>
exercise§</a>
</h1>
haven't gotten back into the groove yet, but christmas eve aside, i have been
doing pretty well with fasting again. first meal is at 12:00 with no eating
till my second meal at around 18:00-19:00, and then repeat.</p>


2019-12-21
Sat, 21 Dec 2019 00:00:00 +0000
work§</a>
</h1>
read up a bit on csrf and what that might look like wrt implementing with
Rocket. not going to lie, a bit confusing/overwhelming given that the
implementation of anti-csrf protections comes in like 3-5 different
forms. might be worth it to make a very small crate that achieves the
functionality i need.</p>
non-work§</a>
</h1>
ate bfast with abuela, mom, gabby. afterwards, helped abuela put up her
christmas tree and then gave her dog a bath because she asked at the last
minute (lol). was good to see her and talk with mom.</p>
exercise§</a>
</h1>
nothing significant, still focusing on getting in the flow of intermittent
fasting again and then going to re-introduce running/lifting again.</p>


2019-12-20
Fri, 20 Dec 2019 00:00:00 +0000
work§</a>
</h1>
put more work into learning rocket and the "port" i am making of the python
flask mega-tutorial by Miguel Grinberg. managed to figure out templating with
tera from within Rocket and wrote some on that.</p>
also cleaned up my org files, took inventory of things i might want to study aside
from stuff like rocket.</p>
non-work§</a>
</h1>
played some games on the switch and read economist/bloomberg/blogs.</p>
exercise§</a>
</h1>
made sure to take pius out for a few walks as mental breaks and enjoy the
weather, contemplate my existence.</p>


2019-12-19
Thu, 19 Dec 2019 00:00:00 +0000
It's winter break but I felt productive by the end of the day, i think.</p>
work§</a>
</h1>
I worked on learning more rocket and finished the paste.rs tutorial on the
website + taking some general notes on the framework.</p>
I cleaned up my org mode files a good amount, as well.</p>
I also looked around at the things I can try studying for job prep between now
and ????.</p>
non-work§</a>
</h1>
Finally, I took Pius on another long walk and tried to enjoy the relatively
nice winter weather. We took a break to play fetch during the walk and Pius had
a blast.</p>
exercise§</a>
</h1>
I re-started my intermittent fasting routine. Fasting over the summer was one
of those things I discovered to work very well for me. I never feel bloated or
"""fat""" as a result, which is really nice (hard to describe otherwise how I
feel comfortable, not distracted by the act of my literal existence). By
dinner, I was starving... but I prevailed nonetheless.</p>


2019-12-18
Wed, 18 Dec 2019 00:00:00 +0000
thoughts§</a>
</h1>
last 3 months§</a>
</h2>
What a trip. Immensely stressful. No other way to really put it other than in visceral detail of
how I managed, and mismanaged, to handle a huge amount of stress and work over the past
semester. It's incredibly ironic in the sense that I thought Fall 2019 was going to be a lighter
semester of work – it was anything but, and the way I juggled all that stress towards the end
was progressively less sustainable.</p>
lessons§</a>
</h3>
i, in all seriousness, feel inclined to write out my own personal postmortem. like, "elias' reflection
on being overwhelmed and fucking up, and how to manage and recover from this." anything else,
such as a literal recollection, is not worth it -- it'll only bring back pain and regret over
my own mistakes and behavior, and anger at perceived injustices and shortcomings by others and
the academic system.</p>
accomplishments§</a>
</h3>
i managed to:</p>

present at Rust Belt Rust with Ferrisp</a></li>
got Papers We Love KC off the ground, this week seeing the 4 consecutive and successful presentations thus far and with a 5th already planned.</li>
finished my classes with a B+ to A average across them (haven't done the actual math)</li>
wrote a lot of rust. probably around 10k LoC.</li>
</ul>
today§</a>
</h1>
work§</a>
</h2>
no.</p>
non-work§</a>
</h2>
today is the first time in months that i'm sitting down to reflect on what i want to do, "need"
to get done, plans, ideas, etc. it's a whole lot of pain admitting this and it's even more to
actively confront it by restarting this personal ritual.</p>
exercise§</a>
</h2>
i haven't worked out in about a month. i want to make this right, again.</p>
food§</a>
</h2>
left over south-asian style rice with 2 eggs and 2 slices of bacon. Robust but to hold me over
past lunch.</p>


2019-09-23
Mon, 23 Sep 2019 00:00:00 +0000
thoughts§</a>
</h1>
sleep situation only got worse, not sure what the hell is going on.</p>
work§</a>
</h1>
goal is get a lot done today, but given how it's started off... i'm not sure
about how that will play out.</p>
tasks:</p>

more cs461 notes</li>
work on cs461 programs, assignments</li>
work on cs449 program</li>
cs420 notes</li>
</ul>
non-work§</a>
</h1>
nah</p>
exercise§</a>
</h1>
given the trash sleep i've gotten these past two days, i don't think i really
should lift. i am kinda scared of doing harm to my muscle recovery and general
progress as i enter the 2.5ish month point in my lifting regiment. i might try
running and seeing if that can tire me out on top of th exhaustion i'm already
feeling.</p>


2019-09-22
Sun, 22 Sep 2019 00:00:00 +0000
thoughts§</a>
</h1>
didn't sleep well last night.</p>
work§</a>
</h1>
did a lot of notes for cs461. it goes without saying, but i am continuously
disappointed by the quality of textbooks out there. i find it negligent, imho,
that the text failed to go into greater depth over how algorithmic analysis
works wrt factors of inputs used for artificial intelligence related
algorithms, problems.</p>
i also worked on some programs.</p>
non-work§</a>
</h1>
i played some link's awakening for the switch. i really enjoy the art style.</p>
exercise§</a>
</h1>
nothing. i worked the day before, though.</p>


2019-09-18
Wed, 18 Sep 2019 00:00:00 +0000
work§</a>
</h1>
spent all day studying for fundamentals of math and linear algebra exams, more
or less.</p>
non-work§</a>
</h1>
∅</p>
exercise§</a>
</h1>
no exercise today</p>


2019-09-17
Tue, 17 Sep 2019 00:00:00 +0000
work§</a>
</h1>
aside from classes, i studied for the linear algebra and math fundamentals
exams i have on thursday. i really do not appreciate a professor announcing our
first exam's date 2 days before the exam.</p>
non-work§</a>
</h1>
i prepared for the papers we love meeting we were supposed to have tonight, but
a series of unfortunate events occurred:</p>

the original room reservation i made at the library was not actually booked
correctly, and the time slot was taken when i tried again</li>
this resulted in us moving the meeting to hedon's apartment, he was
presenting anyway and lived literally a block over, but then he accidentally
locked himself out of his own car before the meeting</li>
</ul>
we rescheduled for next tuesday, and it appears everyone who was going to
attend today can make it next week as well, so this should give us a crowd of
8, which makes me really happy.</p>
as for hosting, i think we will have to keep it at hedon's because the rooms we
were going to use are already booked for next week as well. i might
preemptively invest in a mobile projector and scope out alternative locations
on the university campus we could use and/or consider other kc public library
locations.</p>
exercise§</a>
</h1>
i am going to lift shortly after i commit this log. the agenda is:</p>

squats: 5x5 @ 90lb</li>
bench press: 5x5 @ 65lb</li>
barbell rows: 5x5 @ 85lb</li>
</ul>


2019-09-15
Sun, 15 Sep 2019 00:00:00 +0000
work§</a>
</h1>
not much.</p>
non-work§</a>
</h1>
i saw my abuelos for the first time in like a month - i really didn’t mean to
go that long, but stress and school makes me fuck up my priorities. as always,
they were really happy to see me and i enjoyed seeing them. i wish i had more time.</p>
exercise§</a>
</h1>
nothing today. very sore from yesterday’s lift.</p>


2019-09-14
Sat, 14 Sep 2019 00:00:00 +0000
thoughts§</a>
</h1>
i feel okay, but am simultaneously really stressed out. i don’t know the path
forward in order to finish all the things i need to, or, alternatively, the
path that at least best optimizes for what i need to get done.</p>
without being too on the nose, the other problem is to fight off the constant
instinct to procrastinate in the face of that stress. it was the best of times,
it was the worst of times.</p>
work§</a>
</h1>
i finished the linear algebra stuff i needed yesterday. this still leaves me
with plenty to do. in order of what i probably should do today:</p>

cs461

notes</li>
assignments</li>
</ul>
</li>
math301

notes</li>
</ul>
</li>
cs449 notes</li>
cs420 notes</li>
</ol>
non-work§</a>
</h1>
non.</p>
exercise§</a>
</h1>
i will be lifting later tonight. assuming successful, sets will be:</p>

squats: 5x5 @ 85lb</li>
ohp: 5x5 @ 55lb</li>
dead lift: 1x5 @ 135lb</li>
</ul>
i have no clue how i’m at 135 for dead lifts already.</p>


2019-09-13
Fri, 13 Sep 2019 00:00:00 +0000
thoughts§</a>
</h1>
i’m feeling better, but incredibly overwhelmed.</p>
work§</a>
</h1>
i have a lot to make up for here.</p>

math300

catch-up on some notes</li>
assignments

1.2</li>
1.3</li>
1.4</li>
</ul>
</li>
</ul>
</li>
math301

ch3 notes</li>
ch4 notes</li>
</ul>
</li>
cs461

assignment and homework #1</li>
ch2 notes</li>
ch3 notes</li>
</ul>
</li>
cs420

slide notes</li>
</ul>
</li>
cs449

slide notes</li>
</ul>
</li>
</ul>
non-work§</a>
</h1>
no such luxury.</p>
exercise§</a>
</h1>
might try running tonight. it’s been a while since i’ve done that and if i’m
going to be cranking away at school work for 9-12 hours, i’ll need it.</p>


2019-09-12
Thu, 12 Sep 2019 00:00:00 +0000
thoughts§</a>
</h1>
how do you catch yourself in the downward slump before inertia pulls you down?
i wish i was better at that.</p>
work§</a>
</h1>
felt ill, i think a got a stomach bug or food poisoning, whatever gabby got
yesterday, probably.. today was kinda of a reset as well.</p>
non-work§</a>
</h1>
watched some netflix, don’t do much of that anymore. can’t help but feel guilt
for not getting anything done, to be honest.</p>
exercise§</a>
</h1>
before i got hit with that bug, i lifted:</p>

squats: 5x5 @ 80lb</li>
bench: 5x5 @ 60lb</li>
row: 5x5 @ 80lb</li>
</ul>


2019-09-11
Wed, 11 Sep 2019 00:00:00 +0000
thoughts§</a>
</h1>
hard to describe what this week has been like. the feeling is stuck between two
dichotomies, on one extreme, an infantile inability to handle and come to terms
with the tasks on hand. on the other, a desire to completely reject the
proposition as it stands. i feel like i’ve put more work than ever into the
things i care about and yet it won’t be enough so long as i keep having to deal
with other messes constantly.</p>
i’m tired and i could have done better this week. a lot better. i won’t be
attending strange loop because of it all, and i’m not all that happy.</p>
work§</a>
</h1>
i have a lot of things to do, for those who might not have caught that from
above. past week was unfortunately wasted, more or less. yeah.</p>
non-work§</a>
</h1>
∅</p>
exercise§</a>
</h1>
through my mess, i’ve at least stuck to my workout regime. i’ll be lifting
again sometime tonight or tomorrow morning.</p>
⬛</p>


papers we love -> kcmo
Sun, 08 Sep 2019 00:00:00 +0000
this past tuesday marks (what might turn out to be) kc's first papers we
love</a> chapter meeting. i don’t have much to say here
other than i am really appreciative of those who came out to give feedback for
how/where/when it should be ran. our next meeting is scheduled for september
17th</strong>, so please come out if you want to learn about computer science (and
other things) with friends 🙂.</p>
as of now, based on the feedback and discussion at our first meeting:</p>

we meet every other tuesday</strong> at 7:00PM</strong> at the south kc plaza public library</strong>.</li>
no one really likes FB as an organization/communication channel, and there
isn’t much excitement for meetup.com either.

until we can see if something like telegram or signal group chats work, we
might defer to meetup.com for at an easily discoverable online presence.</li>
i am simultaneously going to look at solutions like GetTogether, which is
~FOSS version of meetup.com.</li>
</ul>
</li>
we’re going to stick with the traditional PWL format, i.e. one person per
meeting will have a paper to present.</li>
we have a good idea of what papers make good candidates and even discussed
ones that we might cover sooner rather than later.</li>
</ul>
it is worth noting that this group remains unofficial.</em> while we will abide by
the PWL code of conduct, i am refraining from forming an official chapter with
PWL proper because i want to make sure a chapter is feasible in the long run
for kcmo. the group agreed on this general view and roughly with the litmus
test i’ve presented: if the group can reliably meet with a healthy number of
attendees (i put this at 6 minimum, preferably ~10) for around 3 months, then i
think it has the capability</em> to survive without overly invested organizers
(i.e. other "founding" members and myself). i am cautiously optimistic, but kc
is ultimately a commuter town, which makes organizing interest groups
particularly hard from what i’ve seen with other organizations. a huge percent
of workers commute in and out of the suburbs, and the moment the clock hits 4PM
it often a race back home to beat traffic.</p>
for our first meeting, only 3 other people showed up. to those of you (Natty,
Noah, Hedon), i am particularly thankful. i’m also very happy to say that hedon
is more than willing to join on as an organizer, which makes my job easier by a
whole order of magnitude. the headcount for the next meeting is much more
promising at around 8-10 people with this past tuesday a glaring exception to
the surveyed availability due to conferences and previous plans.</p>
we also already have a paper chosen out for the 17th. hedon will be presenting
on "Magic: The Gathering is Turing
Complete</a>", a fun and novel paper to get this
group started. ⬛</p>


2019-09-05
Thu, 05 Sep 2019 00:00:00 +0000
thoughts§</a>
</h1>
so i keep mentioning this because it is still a problem and i don't think i
have adequately addressed it, though i do think i've improved on it. i need to
really buckle down on my shit, to be quite honest. this year is going to be
stressful and it's filled with more work, commitments, and loose ends than ever
before and nothing but a singular and monastic like dedication will get me
through it all while achieving my goals. it's harsh, but i want to accomplish
the goals i set out this semester and next.</p>
some ideas:</p>

i need to cut losses on the things i can't master, don't have the time to fully learn

this is largely aimed at my classes where the matter of passing with an A
is largely more about rote memorization than actual understanding. i hate
that so much, but a few of these classes don't really matter in the
immediate moment relative to the other things i ought to learning, focusing
on.</li>
i think anki cards can actually help a lot here. crank out definitions,
concepts, examples, throw them into a deck for constant review. move on. etc.</li>
</ul>
</li>
conversely, i need to double down on things like job prep and self learning

anki cards are working well for me, and i need to make more of them</li>
i need to programming more consistently. it's the only real way to get
better at swe as a general topic. reading won't do it.
- i like ping-cap's teaching plan and am considering it
- HODSA remains a good book and i need to finish that
- injecting the opportunity to use rust in some of my classes will hopefully help here as well</li>
</ul>
</li>
i need to keep working out fanatically

i am actually doing great in this regard, but i can't let stress and
scheduling psych myself into thinking that cutting physical fitness out
actually improves my ability to get things done, learn, etc</li>
</ul>
</li>
</ul>
these are general statements. not much is actionable out of them. that said, i
think resolving to keeping a dedicated study area (bway, umkc library) and
hours of work are going to play an increasingly important role, and i need to
affirm them sooner rather than later. this also means enforcing more
restriction/constraint with what i'm doing on the computer. locking and
blocking myself out of distractions needs to become the rule, not the
exception. i haven't lost too much time to these things, but breaking focus for
a distraction like these can cause a disproportionate amount of lost effort
from lost "deep focus" or whatever people call it.</p>
i think these are some good action items for now. i'll revisit this in the
morning tomorrow and try to implement them immediately, keep them constantly at
back of mind.</p>
work§</a>
</h1>
tues/thurs classes remain a drag. doesn't help that linear algebra is a case
where the class is going really slow, imho, but has an attendance grade and the
risk of quizzes meaning any skipping caries a real amount of risk.</p>
besides classes:</p>

math300 hw 1.1</li>
math301 quiz stuff</li>
cs449 readings</li>
</ul>
non-work§</a>
</h1>
project alloy announced the opportunity for alumni to attend a workshop on
distributed computing taught by aphyr (aka Kyle Kingsbury), which is an amazing
and awesome opportunity. i applied and should be finding out by later next
week. i really hope this works out, despite the added stress to my schedule.</p>
exercise§</a>
</h1>
lifted today:</p>

squats: 5x5 @ 65lb</li>
over head press: 4x5, 1x4 @ 50lb (failed last set)</li>
dead lift: 1x5 @ 115lb.</li>
</ul>
over head press remains my most dreaded workout. i think i genuinely have my
form down for the most part and that it's generally a matter of real weakness
wrt those muscle groups.</p>
as for dead lift, i think i finally rediscovered my form/technique with it, but
also that my stature combined with the plate sizes (not the biggest, yet),
means that the bar is awkwardly close to the ground, which is why reps feel so
strenuous/awkward. i think the gym has 35lb plates and, if so, i'll make sure
to use them next time instead of 25's.</p>


2019-09-04
Wed, 04 Sep 2019 00:00:00 +0000
work§</a>
</h1>
aside from classes:</p>

cs461 notes.</li>
did some agenda/planning stuff.</li>
met up with cs449 group to discuss upcoming project, timeline, outline
deliverable, and figure out what things we need to know before our next
meeting.

also talked about our tech stack. i think we are really going to try and
see if we can get a solution involving rust working using neon to interface
with js/browser.</li>
</ul>
</li>
</ul>
non-work§</a>
</h1>

checked out pocket more as a solution for organizing things i want to read.

next up is to checkout elfeed for emacs so i can setup rss for blogs i want
to keep track of.</li>
</ul>
</li>
</ul>
exercise§</a>
</h1>
none today outside of commuting to/from uni on my bike. doing this consistently
is going to definitely give me some quads given the hills in kc.</p>


2019-09-03
Tue, 03 Sep 2019 00:00:00 +0000
work§</a>
</h1>
busy day.</p>

classes</li>
notes for:

math301</li>
math300</li>
cs461</li>
</ul>
</li>
researched more papers we love stuff

potential papers to read</li>
potential ways to organize/communicate publicly</li>
structure of the group assuming it doesn't die tragically</li>
</ul>
</li>
actual PWL meeting where we discussed these things.

first paper chosen to be discussed is "Magic: The Gathering is Turing
Complete"</a> by Churchill et. al. Hedon
will be the one presenting, thanks Hedon!.</li>
</ul>
</li>
</ul>
non-work§</a>
</h1>
i finally gave in and bought Pocket, used it for saving some papers i want to
read later. not much else here.</p>
exercise§</a>
</h1>
lifting:</p>

squats: 5x5 60lb</li>
bench: 5x5 50lb</li>
barbell row: 5x5 70lb</li>
</ul>
i am also trying to commit to riding my bike to uni instead of using my
car. there is a stupid amount of traffic around the parking garage such that if
you get there at peak leaving/before class, you can literally get stuck
entering/leaving the garage for about ~15 minutes in of itself. it's moronic
and i basically snapped, there's no reason to ride my bike; who cares if i'm
sweaty, less carbon and it's a good workout at ~4mi total, back and forth. it
worked out today, aside from minor leg exhaustion (having lifted before going
to school) and aforementioned sweat.</p>


2019-09-01
Sun, 01 Sep 2019 00:00:00 +0000
thoughts§</a>
</h1>
i am falling behind on some things. i think i need to redouble my efforts on
anki cards, both my writing of them and reviewing. while this is largely for
job prep, i think they would be very useful for cs461 and cs420 due to the
extensive amount of vocab, of sorts, in those classes.</p>
i am running behind on where i would like to be with some class notes. this is
only going to get harder in the next two weeks because of conferences, so i
really need to buckle down hard here.</p>
work§</a>
</h1>

math301 notes

i got through most of ch1 and ch2, but want to get through a good chunk of
ch3 still.</li>
</ul>
</li>
math300 notes

i still want to get ahead of class</li>
</ul>
</li>
</ul>
non-work§</a>
</h1>
read more baudrillard, looked into how i can get an rss feed going with a
workflow/application i would like.</p>
exercise§</a>
</h1>
i ran a 3.48mi run @ 8:04min/mi.</p>


2019-08-31
Sat, 31 Aug 2019 00:00:00 +0000
work§</a>
</h1>
got mired once again by more administrative things, but this was a mistake of
my own design. i forgot to book housing for strange loop and proceeded to lose
2-3 hours in the search for, and (thankfully) booking of a cheap airbnb that is
somewhat</em> close to Peabody. at this point, i am either going to be forced to
commute everyday to SL and pay for daily parking (i really don't want to do
this) or bring my bike so i can learn what cycling through downtown St. Louis
feels like. i really think i'm going with the latter unless weather squares up
to be horrible, not workable.</p>
other than that, i also:</p>

worked on ferrisp</li>
organized and planned out more stuff in my agenda, org files</li>
planned out stuff for the proto-PapersWeLove group i'm organizing for KC.

i'm really excited about this and am cautiously optimistic. i really want
to believe KC can sustain the long run attendance/involvement for such a group.</li>
</ul>
</li>
</ul>
non-work§</a>
</h1>
i met up with some really old friends and ate some wings with them fairly late
into the evening. i don't think the people comprising my social circle were
ever intended to survive this long, but for those of us still here, we are
still trying.</p>
i also read some baudrillard before bed.</p>
exercise§</a>
</h1>
i lifted as per schedule:</p>

squats: 5x5 @ 55lb</li>
over head press: 5x5 @ 45lb</li>
dead lift: 1x5 @ 105lb</li>
</ul>
i think i need to work on my dead lift form, it no longer feels natural as it
did when i was last lifting consistently. primarily, i need to work on how i
execute it when i go back down after each lift.</p>


2019-08-30
Fri, 30 Aug 2019 00:00:00 +0000
work§</a>
</h1>
today i kinda just chilled out a bit. i went to class and did some
administrative things i felt needed to get done but other than that, nah, not
much.</p>
non-work§</a>
</h1>
watched dave chapelle's new special, read some news, and whatnot.</p>
exercise§</a>
</h1>
no exercise today. i think i'm finally at the point where i can (and thus
should) run on the days i'm not lifting. no more excuses!</p>


2019-08-29
Thu, 29 Aug 2019 00:00:00 +0000
thoughts§</a>
</h1>
i think i'm in a small funk. not sure what to do other than double down on
working out, tbh. it's the one thing i've done less of recently and it
correlates pretty heavily with how i feel about myself, and general
mood. school and other commitments increasing in intensity doesn't help either,
but also all the more reason to work out judiciously.</p>
work§</a>
</h1>
Tues/Thurs block of classes remains a monolith of time to work around. need to
get better at that.</p>
aside from classes:</p>

started working on another zola theme for giggles, possibly for a side
writing project i might pickup for fun</li>
got ipython/jupyter books working with rust thanks to google's kickass rust
kernel</a>

heavily consider writing up a small PR to explain how to get it working for
those of us who don't regularly use IPython, Jupyter notebooks..</li>
</ul>
</li>
</ul>
non-work§</a>
</h1>
slow day, to be honest.</p>
exercise§</a>
</h1>
squeezed in some lifting before classes, thinking i might switch it to after
classes to help get the brain going as i've mentioned before:</p>

squats: 5x5 @ 50lb</li>
benchpress: 5x5 @ 45lb</li>
barbell rows: 5x5 @ 65lb</li>
</ul>
minor concern i need to work on my form with barbell rows and overhead press
(last session), but I honest to god think it might have to do with general
weakness with my core/back muscles. last time i lifted consistently, i recall
these things getting better with time. i also did my best to make my benchpress
take time despite being relatively easy at 45lb. long, slow repetitions in
order to better workout those support muscles so i'm less shaky, "jerky"
motion.</p>


2019-08-28
Wed, 28 Aug 2019 00:00:00 +0000
work§</a>
</h1>
not a very productive day for me. i had difficulty getting up, but once i was
up and about:</p>

checked over math301 homework, caught several errors in logic.</li>
researched some stuff for a project i am thinking about doing</li>
read up on some design and architecture stuff with respect to APIs, websites</li>
</ul>
non-work§</a>
</h1>
read some baudrillard, continue to really enjoy Utopia Deferred</em>.</p>
exercise§</a>
</h1>
no workout. was still sore and i opted, at least this time, not to do a run at
minimum. it hurts knowing i am reducing my fitness, but i'm hoping the strength
training will more than payoff.</p>


2019-08-27
Tue, 27 Aug 2019 00:00:00 +0000
thoughts§</a>
</h1>
T/TH are turning out to be the days I'll have difficulty getting anything done
on outside of classes. with class at 10am, that leaves me with not much time to
get anything done in the morning, and i'm not out and done by 2:30ish. it's
hard not to be brain dead after that, so maybe I should consider integrating my
workout for these days for after</strong> classes, such as to give my brain and body
some oxygen and good'ol physical strain to wake up and focus.</p>
work§</a>
</h1>
aside from classes:</p>

figured out travel plans for RBR</li>
contacted professors about my absences re: RBR, Strange Loop</li>
got some math300 notes done</li>
</ul>
non-work§</a>
</h1>
picked up baudrillard again, his collected writings from Utopie are proving to
be a real hidden gem. getting another copy after losing the first book was worth it.</p>
his analysis of political activism, intellectualism remains disturbing in its
prophetic nature. surely the protests of may 1968 invoked his analysis with
deserving accuracy, but it is hard to wrap my brain around the fact he is not
talking about today</strong>.</p>
exercise§</a>
</h1>
i was way too sore lol. i'll probably be just sore enough tomorrow (if not
more, second day tends to be worse), meaning i'm going two days w/o exercise,
not happy about that. maybe i'll try taking some extra long walks to make up for it.</p>


2019-08-26
Mon, 26 Aug 2019 00:00:00 +0000
work§</a>
</h1>
got quite a bit done:</p>

math301 hw</li>
math300 notes</li>
wrote more anki cards for data structures, algos</li>
</ul>
non-work§</a>
</h1>

did some organizing for a potential papers we love
chapter</a> here in kansas city.

i got a group of ~8 people right now who say they are interested, we've all
converged on a good set of dates/time for when this could work. plan on
getting the word out to my department/uni ACM in some way or another, also
might try getting it to the AskADev group I meet with every other weekend.</li>
i really would enjoy having something like PWL in KC. i think this captures
the type of community/professional development i want more of wrt KCMO.</li>
</ul>
</li>
</ul>
exercise§</a>
</h1>
lifted for the first time again today:</p>

squats: 5x5 45lb (bar)</li>
overhead press: 5x4, 1x3 (failed set) 45lb (bar)</li>
deadlift: 1x5 95lb</li>
</ul>
it's going to be a long fall/winter for lifting.</p>


2019-08-25
Sun, 25 Aug 2019 00:00:00 +0000
work§</a>
</h1>
hit on a lot of things today:</p>

math300 notes</li>
math301 notes</li>
math301 homework, halfway done on that</li>
worked on ferrisp

debating to what degree i should clean up the lexing. i want it to be
easily traceable, but there are also probably some better choices i can
make in combinator logic that would make the code more efficient without
losing much in terms of readability</li>
</ul>
</li>
</ul>
non-work§</a>
</h1>

today was largely spent working, not much else.</li>
</ul>
exercise§</a>
</h1>

skipped out on running, but plan on introducing lifting back into my schedule tomorrow</em></li>
</ul>


2019-08-24
Sat, 24 Aug 2019 00:00:00 +0000
work§</a>
</h1>

worked on math301 hw</li>
read math300 text, did notes</li>
wrote some anki cards</li>
</ul>
non-work§</a>
</h1>

hungout with friends, did brunch</li>
</ul>
exercise§</a>
</h1>

ran 4mi @ 7:58min/mi pace. wasn't intending to do that, especially when i
already had cotton mouth and a lead stomach 0.5mi into the run, but lo', i
ran probably my best 5k in 4 years.</li>
not exercise, but i guess it could go here(?): i got stupid anxious towards
the end of the day despite working out, etc, and i had difficulty shaking
it. it made sleeping iffy, so i don't know what to make of it.</li>
</ul>


2019-08-23
Fri, 23 Aug 2019 00:00:00 +0000
work§</a>
</h1>

read more h.o.d.s.a.</li>
worked some more on ferrisp

i think i'm going to truck on with current impl, but i might revisit the idea of using delimited</code> as a combinator.</li>
i feel like it will be a little "magic"-y for attendees, but it is more performant AND it actually embraces more the idea of a AST proper</li>
</ul>
</li>
</ul>
non-work§</a>
</h1>

started a rough draft for a blog post i've been thinking about for a while</li>
read some economist</li>
hungout with some friends from out of town</li>
</ul>
exercise§</a>
</h1>

today was the first time i tried biking to/from school, and it was fun and
great and all that, but i really did underestimate the impact 30lb of
backpack would have on me lol.

also, kc commuters keep me on constant edge, yikes yikes yikes</li>
</ul>
</li>
</ul>


2019-08-22
Thu, 22 Aug 2019 00:00:00 +0000
work§</a>
</h1>

worked on more anki cards - i'm starting to build a sizeable collection of
them, very happy about this.

in particular, i'm focusing on rust and general data structure terms. it's
very good for helping to cement trickier concepts or patterns, which i like
a lot. the process of writing good cards in of itself is a healthy exercise
in learning as well.</li>
</ul>
</li>
worked on ferrisp for rust belt rust

this is going to start taking more and more of my time, as i would prefer
to front-load on this now in the semester for a lot of different reasons.</li>
today i worked on the lexer/parser/ast. since i'm using nom for now, which
is a bit of twist compared to a traditional toy programming language, i'm
juggling how i'm going to integrate this in the workshop smoothly.

i think using/teaching nom is worth it, i really do. the question is how
i am going to communicate this and demonstrate this to the audience and
then make sure they can get up and going with it quickly along with other
things.</li>
worst case i default back on to a normal scanner to lex and tokenize, but
i'm hoping i can come up with write-ups, documentation, and demo code
that makes that not necessary.</li>
</ul>
</li>
</ul>
</li>
</ul>
non-work§</a>
</h1>

aired up my tires, they've been needing it.

one tire has a slight tear/loss of rubber on the side(?) which
blows... they are new tires. it is not significant, but i will need to keep
an eye on that.</li>
</ul>
</li>
got some groceries</li>
did some reading</li>
</ul>
exercise§</a>
</h1>

ran ~4mi of 0.5mi intervals with gabby, ~9min/mi on the fast ones, ~12min/mi
on the slow ones.

really nice weather and run.</li>
</ul>
</li>
</ul>


2019-08-21
Wed, 21 Aug 2019 00:00:00 +0000
work§</a>
</h1>

read h.o.d.s.a. for about 1.5 hours or so, along with writing code with
it. open sourced that</a> for other people to
look at, i guess.</li>
started ch1 of my networking book</li>
wrote quite a few anki cards, particularly wrt rust.</li>
made a small PR</a> to read-rust,
which is a very cute idea/website.</li>
</ul>
non-work§</a>
</h1>

thought about some things to write about. it doesn't feel like work, but
maybe it is.</li>
read some of the economist. trying to build a habit of getting back into
recreational, i.e. non-technical reading, but yet again i think other people
would consider my interest in finance and economics anything but, uh,
relaxing 😬</li>
got a good salad at the mixx with gabby</li>
</ul>
exercise§</a>
</h1>

did not work out. got up a bit late + was pretty tired by 9PM, so just opted
not to.</li>
</ul>


2019-08-20
Tue, 20 Aug 2019 00:00:00 +0000
work§</a>
</h1>

more anki cards. i am starting to really enjoy my workflow now that i'm sticking with it.</li>
read some math 301 and h.o.d.s.a.</li>
</ul>
non-work§</a>
</h1>

nuthin</li>
</ul>
exercise§</a>
</h1>

ran 4.0mi with gabby @ ~11:20min/mi before bed last night. having difficulty
sleeping still, i think it's largely school/job-prep related in its totality.</li>
</ul>


2019-08-19
Mon, 19 Aug 2019 00:00:00 +0000
work§</a>
</h1>

classes began, had cs449 and cs420 today. i really hope for the best, particularly with cs420 which is networks.</li>
worked on anki cards, also worked on an org-capture template that should
make, well, making anki cards easier as i can quickly knock them out while
reading something in emacs or on the web.

also found a bug with anki-org, which was already filed. seems an upstream lib for using libcurl introduced a (seemingly avoidable...) async bug.</li>
</ul>
</li>
knocked out an exercism.io problem, i think i might go with that over hackerrank. we'll see.</li>
</ul>
non-work§</a>
</h1>

read some more of both hands-on data structures and algorithms with rust and</strong> feeling good.</li>
</ul>
exercise§</a>
</h1>

ran a really good 5k. intervals of 0.5 between a ~8:00min/mi pace and ~9:00min/mi pace.</li>
</ul>


2019-08-18
Sun, 18 Aug 2019 00:00:00 +0000
work§</a>
</h1>

looked at job prep stuff and starting formulating some kind of routine for
prep between anki cards and problem sets to look at.</li>
also cleaned out my org mode master file, got it ready for classes and this
school/professional year generally.</li>
</ul>
non-work§</a>
</h1>

read some of that Feeling Good book with Gabby, i really like thus far and
somewhat implicitly affirms my priors about stoicism as a general life
philosophy. call it cliche, but since high school i can recall believing that
stoicism was due for a comeback because of what i saw/felt coming with
respect to technology, social media, and economic uncertainty. i
unfortunately think hs me was right 8 some years later.</li>
</ul>
exercise§</a>
</h1>

relaxed, no workout. starting to think that i shouldn't take off days,
though. my body is really accustomed to the stress relief/outlet provided by
some kind of arduous workout, so maybe always at least run 2-4mi even if at
very slow pace? idk.</li>
</ul>


2019-08-17
Sat, 17 Aug 2019 00:00:00 +0000
work§</a>
</h1>

went to AskADev kc, talked about what i've been doing, talked with corey
about what he should/should not do with the group now that he wants to move
away from the AskADev brand/national-org.</li>
also spent some time looking at ways to do more job prep given i'm
graduating, totally not filled with dread and paralysis over the issue, no
sir.</li>
</ul>
non-work§</a>
</h1>

pretty boring day, played some videogames and hungout with gabby</li>
</ul>
exercise§</a>
</h1>

ran 3.5mi of intervals in the morning, averaging a pace of ~9:00min/mi
flat. the intervals were 0.25mi each, except for last 0.5 which was race
pace. cooldown intervals averaged around 9:00-10:00, faster intervals varied
between 7:30-8:15. felt good, was challenged.</li>
</ul>


2019-08-16
Fri, 16 Aug 2019 00:00:00 +0000
work§</a>
</h1>
did some self-care and cleaned up my emacs config a tiny bit, synchronized it
with changes from over the summer. started looking at hands-on data structures
and algorithms with rust again.</p>
non-work§</a>
</h1>
finally got my passport figured out; that was a small saga to go through but
the paperwork and money is all submitted and paid.</p>
exercise§</a>
</h1>
ran ~3.5mi at a ~9:30min/mi. felt good, but tiring. i think i am hitting a
small wall and need to throw some intervals into my training again.</p>


2019-08-15
Thu, 15 Aug 2019 00:00:00 +0000
work§</a>
</h1>

got my blog setup and running with gitlab's CI/CD integration for
github. it's really nice being able to commit new content, like this log, and
gitlab automate the deployment to aws s3. it feels a little bit
overengineered given the code hosting is on github, the ci/deployment is on
gitlab, the actual static hosting is on s3, and the dns stuff is cloudflare,
but altogether i really like the infrastructure behind my website.</li>
</ul>
non-work§</a>
</h1>

made headway on passport stuff, should be handled soon.</li>
</ul>
exercise§</a>
</h1>

ran 4mi, felt fairly tired about .5mi in going @ ~9min/mi pace, so i just
targeted my heart rate for remainder.</li>
</ul>


2019-08-14
Wed, 14 Aug 2019 00:00:00 +0000
work§</a>
</h1>

read up on docker, CI/CD, and makefiles. i want to use these tools more often
and i'm going try them out with this website as a test.</li>
</ul>
non-work§</a>
</h1>

not much, lax day. somewhat foggy feeling because of the drinking last night
at the concert. i just don't think my brain cares for alcohol in any amount
past two or three drinks; i always feel cloudy and overall meh the next day.</li>
may or may not have bought a physical copy of okasaki's purely fp data
structures along with another promising book on compiler construction.</li>
</ul>
exercise§</a>
</h1>

got annoyed because of computers, decided to put that into a hard run. nailed
a ~8:15min/mi pace on my 5k despite staying up late previous night, feeling
somewhat gross from the drinking/food.</li>
</ul>


2019-08-13
Tue, 13 Aug 2019 00:00:00 +0000
work§</a>
</h1>

knocked out a bunch of errands today, things like grocery shopping and working on the sink</li>
started re-applying for passport; a hellish experience given that i lost my previous one, it seems. </li>
</ul>
non-work§</a>
</h1>

went to a This Will Destroy You concert in westport. they were absolutely
amazing live and i was front and center the entire time, arms reach from
everyone in the band minus the drummer.</li>
</ul>
exercise§</a>
</h1>

ran ~3.5mi in the morning, ~11min/mi pace. something brisk but not too fast,
though i really need to start crunching on pace again.</li>
</ul>


2019-08-12
Mon, 12 Aug 2019 00:00:00 +0000
work§</a>
</h1>

fleshed out more content on ageof.info, like the log page itself and $readings</li>
figured out aws' cli tool and got that running with s3</li>
</ul>
non-work§</a>
</h1>

i worked on my agenda and drew out the weekly and monthly calendars from
september of this year through june of next. time flies.</li>
</ul>
exercise§</a>
</h1>

didn't end up working out, was a bit too tired and dehydrated by the end of
the day</li>
</ul>


2019-08-11
Sun, 11 Aug 2019 00:00:00 +0000
work§</a>
</h1>

checked out aws cli and what that looks like for automation with s3, but not
much else.</li>
</ul>
non-work§</a>
</h1>


wrote a blog post.</p>
</li>

went to the nelson atkins and saw 30 Americans, discovered a new personal
favorite artist, Jean-Michel
Basquiat</a>. not to be
dramatic, but i don't think there is any other artist whose work i more
closely appreciate as of my discovery. his bird on money piece was a pleasure
to see in real life.</p>
</p>
</li>
</ul>
exercise§</a>
</h1>

due to unforeseen events, only ran only a 1.5mi.</li>
</ul>


rust belt rust conference
Sat, 10 Aug 2019 00:00:00 +0000
tl;dr - i'm teaching a workshop§</a>
</h1>
i didn't expect to write again so soon, but it never hurts. long story short, i
am very ${HAPPY|NERVOUS} to announce that i am giving a full-day workshop at
the rust belt rust conference this year. without risking further spoilers, i
refer you to the  website</a>, but
for those interested, whether attendees or otherwise, keep a close eye on this
blog in late october.</p>
that all said and done, there are some tangential things i would like to talk
about wrt rust's community and this opportunity i have been given.</p>
background§</a>
</h1>
i attended rust belt rust (RBR) for the first time last year when i was still
inexperienced with rust1</a></sup>. i dabbled with it multiple times before and
attempted non-trivial projects, but altogether nothing that amounted to
something and, consequentially, no real in-depth knowledge of rust. despite
that, there was no hesitation on the part of the RBR organizers and sponsors,
especially Carol ${Nicholls|Goulding}. i really didn't have any money at the
time, but they managed to cover all costs for my attendance and i'm still very
thankful for that.</p>
it was at RBR that i attended a workshop taught by Matthias
Endler</a> and Santiago
Pastorino</a> that revolved around building a toy
shell</a> in rust. this
workshop was a great experience for me (afaik, everyone) because of the
applicability of the material and its engagement. now, by definition,
technical workshops are supposed to be engaging and applied, but this workshop
was doubly so for someone inexperienced and looking for a fun, ready, and
"realistic" application of rust.</p>
fast-forward to the end of the conference, and i am talking with Endler and
Pastorino about how much i enjoyed the workshop and how prior to it i kept
failing to find a reason to "really learn" rust. after mentioning how i needed
that next "thing" to keep myself motivated and learning rust outside of school,
Endler challenged me to teach the same workshop next year. </p>
tbqh, i laughed.</strong> Endler asked "why not?  you'll have 12 months to prepare."
i thought it was ridiculous but less than 12 hours later - on a total whim while
i waited to board my plane - i wrote an email mentioning such an idea to
Carol. she more than humored my pitch and said to consider myself invited for
RBR 2019.</p>
between that email and may'ish, i spent a good amount of time getting better at
rust with various little projects. as of two months ago, Carol replied on that email asking if
i was still interested in giving a workshop and that her invitation was still
completely open to me.</p>
i largely forgot the email and Endler's challenge upon receiving that reply,
but what is certain is that my experience at RBR last fall helped begin a
greater change in my career (life?) to take a greater focus on my skills as a
software engineer, particularly with rust. compared to a year ago, i felt a lot
more confident and more invested in both rust and its community; i wasn't sure
initially, but it felt like up to that point in time that friends and kind
strangers (Carol, Endler, and others) all supported and challenged me to say
yes.</p>
... and that's how i got the opportunity to teach my first workshop at tech
conference.</strong> really, that's all i wanted to say. thank you so much to everyone
who made this possible, especially Carol, Endler, the broader rust community,
and those close confidants who prodded me to say yes. in the grand scheme of
things, it's not all that huge of an event, but these past two years have been
personally very tumultuous and uncertain, and it feels like i've finally
started to find my ground.</p>
i'll see you all at rust belt rust in october!</p>

    </a>
</div>

^{1</sup>
relatively speaking, i still consider myself inexperienced but friends and peers insist otherwise </p>
</div>}


2019-08-10
Sat, 10 Aug 2019 00:00:00 +0000
work§</a>
</h1>

figured out how s3 and cloudflare work, was a partial migraine inducing
affair because of (not knowing) cloudflare's option to bust its cache.</li>
more blog work, found some small edge cases with styling for tablet
devices. i think it only effects my personal customizations because of my
margin offset and not the base theme itself.</li>
</ul>
non-work§</a>
</h1>

not much!</li>
</ul>
exercise§</a>
</h1>

rest day</li>
</ul>


sudo init 6
Fri, 09 Aug 2019 00:00:00 +0000
return code 0</code>§</a>
</h1>
i've decided to remake my blog, yet again, after four intermittent years of
writing. a part of this has to do with the forking paths i find myself slowly
approaching: with the end of university, things like job hunting, future living
arrangements, and figuring out what i want to do with myself, professional and
otherwise, sit constantly at the front of my mind. naturally</em>, remaking my
blog using a new stack of technologies1</a></sup> is a natural coping mechanism to all
of this.</p>
jokes aside, the other major motivation for restarting this endeavor is that
i've found myself wanting to write again, particularly on things technical. the
past two years have been hectic but in recent months I've found myself with
more free time and more things i want to write about, especially as i play with
tools and concepts i've been wanting to learn outside of university.</p>
consequentially, here sits this site, born again in cyberspace. i've stripped
away the past, abandoning years of my old writing2</a></sup> - it isn't much relevant
anymore and I don't care for carrying its weight any longer - and, with a clean
slate to write on, hope to start anew. i might pull an item or two from the old
version of ageof.info, those pieces lost between this form and my first blog,
but i view this new medium with a clear focus looking forward. for those
reading, i hope you find it worth your time.</p>

^{1</sup>
i ported/forked a theme from Hugo so i could use it on zola and now depend
on cloudfront and s3 for my hosting. i also got tired of jekyll's build times
and learned (the hard way) that raspberry pi's struggle with intermittent power
outages.</p>
</div>
^{2</sup>
besides, they sit safely on an old wordpress.</p>
</div>}}
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2019-12-18

2019-09-23

work§</a> </h1> goal is get a lot done today, but given how it's started off... i'm not sure about how that will play out.</p> tasks:</p> more cs461 notes</li> work on cs461 programs, assignments</li> work on cs449 program</li>

2019-09-22

2019-09-18

2019-09-17

non-work§</a> </h1> i prepared for the papers we love meeting we were supposed to have tonight, but a series of unfortunate events occurred:</p> the original room reservation i made at the library was not actually booked correctly, and the time slot was taken when i tried again</li>

2019-09-15

2019-09-14

work§</a> </h1> i finished the linear algebra stuff i needed yesterday. this still leaves me with plenty to do. in order of what i probably should do today:</p> cs461 notes</li> assignments</li> </ul> </li>

2019-09-13

thoughts§</a> </h1> i’m feeling better, but incredibly overwhelmed.</p> work§</a> </h1> i have a lot to make up for here.</p> math300 catch-up on some notes</li>

work§</a> </h1> i have a lot to make up for here.</p> math300 catch-up on some notes</li>

non-work§</a> </h1> no such luxury.</p> exercise§</a> </h1> might try running tonight. it’s been a while since i’ve done that and if i’m going to be cranking away at school work for 9-12 hours, i’ll need it.</p>

2019-09-12

2019-09-11

papers we love -> kcmo

2019-09-05

2019-09-04

work§</a> </h1> aside from classes:</p> cs461 notes.</li> did some agenda/planning stuff.</li>

2019-09-03

work§</a> </h1> busy day.</p> classes</li>

2019-09-01

work§</a> </h1> math301 notes i got through most of ch1 and ch2, but want to get through a good chunk of ch3 still.</li> </ul> </li>

2019-08-31

2019-08-30

non-work§</a> </h1>
no such luxury.</p>
exercise §</a> </h1>
might try running tonight. it’s been a while since i’ve done that and if i’m going to be cranking away at school work for 9-12 hours, i’ll need it.</p>
